You sound great! I'm glad you got out to see the movie. It is a good one.
Congratulations on the publication of the story! You have a lot to be proud of, i.e., you've come a very long way and are an inspiration to all.
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.