Well I had my counselling session today and it went really well. The guy who's counselling me is really nice and I feel so comfortable sharing how I feel with him.
How am I feeling today? I feel good, I feel like I'm learning so much about myself and I can't believe how far I have come in 9 days since I last cried. I look forward to every day, I have somehow managed to stop feeling guilty and blame myself for my R problems. I am completely focused on the here and now and ME. I feel so in tune with myself, and ready for whatever comes at me.
I feel like it could go either way with my M, and there has been so many positives this week in how me and my W have interacted. I've come to terms with the fact that my W might just need a break (permanent,temporary who knows) from being in a 12 year relationship. It would probably do both of us the world of good, but the 2 small people in our lives would definitely disagree.
I guess I'm saying that I'm in a much better place, physically and psychologically since the bomb (s) and, I am starting to love life and myself again. I am not living my life in the past or on eggshells anymore.
Today I walk tall, out of my shadow and open to the light that will show me the path to happiness.
Bill
Me 34 W 32 D 9 S 6 M: 9 years T: 12 Bomb: 02/11/12 EA/PA: 12/17/11 - ongoing Moved out: Oct 2012 Joint Filed for D: 2/11/13
