OK, I think its over and not sure I want her back at this point.
We talked more, I know I get nothing but lies from her and back talking to friends/relatives. I don't think I would ever trust her again at this point. She is showing more anger now, I think she is trying to get off some meds. The backstory on "why she doesn't love me" is expanding more. She said I was not a good father for 8 years... but I have been for last 6 months, and she resents that. Before any piling on, I'm not sure if I did 50/50 work the entire time, but I have been majorly involved. I know I have done picking up from daycare and school, and feeding, and generally watching in afternoons and early evenings a lot more. She has done more of nighttime routine and stuff like birthday parties, play days on weekends.
Hiring a lawyer, I may take 50/50 custody if she offers it. I no longer trust her with kids completely so not even sure if I should settle for that. If she wants me in future I may just consider it at the time.
Help in thread has been awesome. Thanks everyone so much. I will leave door open if possible and just see where this goes.
