DBing while settling finances

[needgrace]

It is alternately easy and difficult to not text or call. I guess the ups and downs are normal. When it is hard, I remind myself of the times it has been easy and also remind myself of the reasons I am not in contact now, to give her space and to allow myself to detach and grow. I guess I am giving us both space. Right now is a hard time though.

This morning, I found that the bird nest in the backyard had been disturbed and all the eggs were smashed on the ground. That made me sad and for some reason made me miss my W more.

I was tempted to email and ask her if she wanted to watch our dog while I am away this week. W is moving on April 12th. I know though that when I look at it honestly, I am attempting to manipulate and remind her of what she is leaving behind. So I will find someone else.

I miss her so much sometimes, it just hurts.

I have been GALing and had a good weekend but just felt like sharing my sadness this morning with those who understand it better than anyone. thank you.