Thanks Beatrice.....
I'm having a moment of just feeling crazy. OW posted about getting a great price on plane tickets to see a friend. I figured she would go to DC to see him.

I need to not look at her page and let them have each other.

I don't know why it hurts so much. He is a dope, and I am sure I can live a more enjoyable life without him.

Yes, I keep forgetting the DETACH part.

Maybe part of my problem is that I just feel alone. Everywhere I go, everything I do, I am surrounded by happy couples. I was reading about lost love, and comically it puts the brain into a place simular to being newly in love. In other words crazy!

This is a chapter out of the book "Cut Loose", it talks about lost love.

http://www.helenfisher.com/downloads/articles/16cutloose.pdf

I also read somewhere that it takes 5-7 years to get over a long term marriage. Well I don't have time for that. I'm going to
put a rubber band on my wrist and start snapping it when ever I think of my H and wishing things could be magically repaired.

I really don't want him back. I know that MLC is a problem, maybe even an illness. Well maybe it isn't my problem.

Maybe my problem is how to have what I want and need, and not have an anchor dragging me down!


Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32
D final 9/12
Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!