Rick, I hear you. I cant let him effect me. Sometimes it hard.
Evas, I totally get what you are saying about not chasing him. Right now I feel like I am heading into the phase. I was dim for several months and my H claimed we should be more friendly. Now I have somewhat excepted my new reality, of me & the girls. I am trying to act like myself a little more than I was a few months ago.
As purg said in her post to me just being comfortable in my own skin.
Sometimes I will say things that are not the perfect strategy for bringing him back, but ultimitely he has to come back to the real Bkyln, not some pretend uber mother theresa DB BklynMom.
I am doing my best juggling just being me and not getting being attached to the results.
H called while I was writing this post to say good night to the girls. D3 told him she missed him and when are you coming home. H remains stoic, expresses no sadness nor seems to question WTF he is doing to his angels.
It is so clear that he is having a MLC and there is nothing I can do. I will leave it up to God
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
