Probably in 2-3 weeks. I hate packing. Brings up so many memories. But I got a lot accomplished today. Started on the kitchen, the worst. You should see my house! Boxes everywhere! I think I will get upto hundreds. I've almost finished the whole upstairs. The worst is the kitchen. Eveything needs to be wrapped. But I'm taking the good stuff, if you know what i mean. So proud of you with wiring. I'm insisting h. be at move, b/c there is wireless computer, cable, dvr, dvd, etc. Can't deal, plus don't want to be alone with a bunch of mover guys. he's agreed to be there and help.
He's having his back surgery on April 5th. Doc said 6 weeks recup. He does'nt even want me to be with him in Seattle for this. I offerred a couple of times. I think he thinks, well mind reading, that it would lead me on, and it would be too much of a bonding sit. Whatever, right now I'm sure he is po'd at me for standing up to p. settlement and making things difficult for him.
I had a good talking to from my d. bf father, a self described cynic, to look out for myself in this money settlement. I've been way to agreeable, this is trouble to me in my db. But I have too look out for myself. I may never know if my dbing will work in future, but need to take care of myself. Not getting any younger! Today was hard. I've been reading others threads, morning sadness gets me every day, plus the stupid dreams, still together, working stuff out. It's amazing, I had dreams over the last year he was leaving me. Wow, I wish I had listened to them. So I just need to go on day to day. I'm just afraid that after all is done, I'm in new place, no matter what I do to fix me, that he will never see. We don't have kid, so really no need to see each other. That he will just be done and gone. But I need to make a life for myself no matter what. Sorry for the long post. But that's where I'm at. It's hard, but compared to when bomb dropped, it's not as horrible.
I really hope the best for you and thank you for checking in.
