D3 was sick all night Thursday while she was at my H apt. He was up all night then had a big day at work which he was exhausted for. I always think this hard life circumstances are going to spark a glimmer from my H but they seem to make him more resolved.
Right now the more together and grounded I get the stranger my H seems. We get along fine but I definitely feel a tension in the air when he is around. SOmetimes I think its sexual tension but then I convince myself thats is only my wishful thinking.
Thursday I had a really rough day at work and got chewed out by a very high up guy. It was tough. In an email to my H regarding logistics I shared that I was reamed by this guy. H didnt comment. I must say that really hurt.
It felt really lonely to have had such a tough day and I could go to the person I look to for support. Next time I am just gonna post about immediately. C'est la vie!
---- M 39 H 35 D5,D4 M 4 T 9 ILYBNILWY 5/18/11 Left 7/11/11 Divorced 12/1/13
