Thank you Valeska19, your post really makes sense to me. I agree totally and will reread your words when I feel hurt and am tempted to not be the best me. Thank you.

A friend told me that maybe it was a good thing that I saw W out last night, and now I think it was. It made everything more real and cut through any illusions I might have as to what is going on with her while we are not having much contact.

Also, I am so so happy (and SHOCKED to be honest) that I have not been tempted to text or call her. Finally, I feel as if I am starting to get my feet back under me and am able to focus on my life. I went bicycling on the beach today, loving Southern California.

I wish I had posted much earlier on this journey. I lurked for awhile, read many posts and thought that was good enough. I was wrong, there is definitely much more to be learned by posting your own story and getting feedback. I encourage all to do so.

Thanks again Valeska. How is your situation going? I wish you all the best.


Me(f): 51 W: 41
DP:8 M:3 T:10
"W not happy" 7/11
D final: 8/13