I am confused, too. Basically, I do not feel that the life I want is a decision a way. I don't think I was bewailing that fact, just a little indecisive on the first steps to take. The direction one sets out in greatly affects the destination one arrives at.
I intended to write "I do not feel that the life I want is a decision [u][/u]away[b][/b]." Meaning, although I feel the urge to summon all my forces and explode on a new course into the life I desire, I do not see where to direct all my efforts.
And the answer is, I don't need direction and guidance. I need courage and commitment.
And from this forum, I need to stop looking for advice and start using you for a sounding-board to help me to process my own decisions and observations. And please keep en-couraging me. I will certainly need heap loads of that.
