The drinking thing:Recently I got to a point where I was drinking hard about three nights a week. Living above a bar did not help. I felt physically crappy all the time and my thoughts became clouded too. I have since stopped and I feel so much better now. So I know what you mean.
Things are happening for you now. Keep it up!
Me: 44 Bomb: 11/27/11 Divorced:6/12 Life goes on: 6/13