6 months of marriage rebuilding and a discovery

[Lonely Room]

Guys, thank you very much for your thoughts. This is all this forum is about!

When my wife approached me and things started to improve, I didn't stop. The improvements I did in my life in the last year were mostly for me, and I feel good with who I am now. I'm progressing in my martial arts training, I'm making new friends all the time, I'm going to parties, I'm buying new clothes, I'm travelling. I take nothing for granted.

We are not seeing a MC because my wife completely refuses the idea. She doesn't like to talk about her feelings in front of strangers, and I really think it would be a disaster. As for confronting, I thought about it... But she doesn't react very well to those kind of situations and I'm almost sure that she would retract and isolate. So, I kind of put that idea in the shelf right now.

I think that as things are right now, I cannot let it go. I don't want to be married with someone that doesn't love me and is only with me because I can provide her life comfort. If that's the case, then she deserves better. I deserve better. Marriage isn't an arrangement of interests, it's much more than that.

This is all very complicated, but surprisingly, I'm calm, happy, confident and not really scared. I think I'm stronger!

Thank you again guys.