Thanks friends! I feel like I am living with a bi-polar person. Or maybe a split personality.
He goes from treating me like his servant, to nicely thanking me for buying him the vitamins he was out of.
I am trying to keep my changes going. I'm trying not to get sucked into the nasty meaness. Most of all I'm trying to move on with my life. I don't want a man who has choosen to "LOVE" a woman who is so mean and scary.
One of my problems is I feel he is just so gone, there is nothing I can do about it. I don't feel separated. I feel used.
He is going to be gone for a week. I was thinking about rearranging the house. Taking back my bedroom, moving myself into the other half of the house, and letting him have the family room and TV and chairs he likes best. And the guest bedroom.
I don't feel like I have any privacy where I am. I have no place to go be alone when I want it. I miss my old bedroom. When I go to sleep at night I feel like I am in a temporary place. I am in fact sleeping in the bed he plans to take with him when we divorce. I don't like that.
I want to put all the stuff that will be "His" in the guest room. I want to sleep in my bed, with my dresser, my nightstand. He says we are separated. Only in his head. I think some of the physical stuff needs to be separate. I don't think he knows what separated really means.
We did have a funny exchange about a week ago. He made some comment about how it was his night to sleep with the dogs. I simply said I thought the dogs should sleep with me, as they were my dogs.
He hasn't said another word, and has left the dogs with me every night since.
Today is yoga class and pay boat rent. I also need to go do papaerwork to get my son's insurance updated.
Oh what fun! I hope everyone has a nice day!
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
