6 months of marriage rebuilding and a discovery

[Lonely Room]

Hello Kaffe Diem, good to speak to you again!

When she contacted me saying that she was sad and lonely, last November, I was already planning for the divorce and by then we were separated for 5 months. I even had an appointment scheduled with a solicitor, so, it caught me by surprise.

She said she was sad an lonely with her life and would like to see me again. It was like a huge ray of sunshine in my mind! I always though that she did that because she saw clear improvements in my life and wanted me back. Last week, when I found-out about the other man, all of that was put in perspective.

You see, now I don't know what are her true feelings. Does she feel anything for him? Is there still anything going on between them? Is she just with me because I provide her comfort, and not because she loves me, whatever that means?

I still want to save our marriage, but I don't want it to be just a convenience for her. Because I know that down the road, if problems show-up again or if someone else gets under her likes, I will be ditched one more time. And now I'm strong enough not to let than happen.

Thank you!