IB, I hope that you and your son are enjoying your vacation. I'm sure that you feel a lot better being away.
You've come a long way and have worked so hard to get to where you are today that I wanted to just say "my hat's off to you". You've been an inspiration to many on the board because when you stumble, you pick yourself up and continue moving foward.
IB, your posting was excellent and I can tell that you are giving some serious thought to how to take care of yourself. Lady, you are going to be just fine...you are strong and independent and no matter what....you are going to shine!
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.