Plus my h. has chronic pain, which he is getting surgery for April 5. His dad died 2 years ago, I don't know, plus a friend? egging him on to resolve his own bad marriage issues. Can I ever fix this. Don't think so, just have to do the best for me and get on with a new better me, It's just so hard. Sometimes, no, a lot of times, I don't even want to get up in morning. Only thing to make me, is my kids. So much regret, so much fear. Well if i survive this i will be a stonger person. so what? Can't see and feel into future and can't fake it. Right now, feel like crap. I hope someone responds to this. Feeling very alone right now.
