taking the time to watch the wave

[BFloat]

not sure if we have a bed, bath and beyond.. but i went to the showcase store (where they sell all those as seen on tv stuff) and bought it! so tonight i think i will have to figure out how to move the computer and tv with all the wiring. i'm afraid to take things apart and not have anything work again. :B

so H txted last night after the kids had already gone to bed. i asked if he was still coming to take S to school or whether i should prepare to do it. he said he was coming because he needed to see the kids.

when he got here this morning, he seemed a bit down. and later on i could see him tearing up when he was hugging them and as he stood there looking around at our place. i didn't say anything. went upstairs instead so that i wouldn't get teary. he had also brought me a usb cable for my kindle. that was a nice gesture (i didn't tell him that i had just ordered one online last night).

i heard S asking H if he was going to stay here after he picked him up from school today (H wasn't intending on picking him up from school). when H came back, he seemed a lot happier. talking to me about GOT.. checking gas prices across the border.. eating MY chips.. lol.

i don't want to put any thought to his actions or his sadness. i always seem to get hurt when i get expectations and i just don't want to go there this time.

afterschool, S was asking whether H was staying at our place. he really got upset when i said no. this is the first time he's become so upset to the point of tears. it broke my heart. so i just gave him a hug and told him how much i love him.

what's my GAL tonight?? criminal minds.. figuring out all the electronics stuff.. FIL is also supposed to come by and see the kids. and i guess i will call the people from retrouvaille back for the interview. i'm really nervous. eek.