Thanks hopeandpraying!! I shall put in some prayers for everyone here.
Journal entry: I had a facial today, and enjoyed that very much. Memories started bubbling up though as I was relaxing on the table. When my H and I would go on holiday, we'd usually get facials or other wellbeing treatments together. When on holiday we did soooo much together - like joined at the hip kind of together. It wasn't quite like that though during 'normal' living - what with jobs etc.
Later in the day, I was cooking a wonderful meal for myself, then bang! I started remembering that most of the spices that I have are from our travels.
So, those memories were coming up and I had a little cry. It will help when I get a new place.
He has my juicer there at his place, but that's about it. Oh, some of my things are still there too (clothes), so there is a trace of me there.
I was like, "Was it really so bad that he had to leave?" Well, obviously yes - to him. Then, i started thinking about his reasons for leaving again, and he said things like, "We don't make each other happy." Well, there's no use arguing about it now. Still, I do have to say he was very doom and gloom about it - which is why I feel that he has a protective filter on his perception.
I do get him. I was the one who broke-up our M 1.5 years ago by separating from him. He hasn't recovered since, and has become ultra sensitive and self-protective. Why did I do that? At that time, because he wasn't listening (looking back now, I didn't speak in a way that would allow him to listen). I was the one who felt unappreciated at that time. Now, it's his turn. I feel guilt for starting this whole series of events.
I spoke to my coach today who gave me a good technique to balance out the chakras when these feelings start. So, I will be doing that tonight before bed.
Anyway...
I have plans for the next couple of days - keeping myself busy and social.
I haven't heard about the property I put an offer on. Hopefully I'll get some news this weekend.
