"25y, I don't appreciate you suggesting that clarity isn't right around the corner. "
She's right. It isn't. Clarity comes through with alot of trial and error. And no one gets it right off the bat. Especially someone who has only been at this for a couple of months. You were pretty rude.
"I wish it were time for me to stand up and be a man. Grow a spine, enforce my boundaries... I wish it were time for me to shine and be the man that I was made to be. Write, succeed, kick bad habits, win that woman back."
So what's wrong with right now?
"In 20 years, I think that I will be a useful, solid man who impacts other people's lives with care and confidence and grace, or else a bit of a sniveler, that you'd prefer not to spend much time with given the choice."
Okay here's the 2x4. Alot of what you've posted is you feeling sorry for yourself. You have one of two choices. Either you can wallow in the hole that you find yourself in and just continue to sink. OR you can choose to look up at the opening of that hole and CHOOSE to claw your way out of it.
Look at yourself in the mirror. Do you see the MAN that you want your son to become? Do you see the man that you would want your daughter to marry?
If not, then CHOOSE to fight and become a better person. And there's no better time than right now.
I get the pity party. We've all been there. And your self-esteem has been shot, chewed up and spit out by your W's actions. I get it. Heck, my W had an A with her boss twice her age. It took me awhile to get over it, but I chose to be the better man now for my kids. They were my inspiration.
See what fires you up and do something about it.
M-43 W-40 2D - 9 and 5
Emotion, yet peace. Ignorance, yet knowledge. Passion, yet serenity. Chaos, yet harmony. Death, yet a new life.
