Just had my phone call. It is a sign of a messed up person that I feel relieved/proud that she said that I'm in a complicated situation. A lot of where we got to was that I will be paying attention (and experimenting) very specifically in the coming weeks for exactly what I do and how she reacts. Some things about going dark might not fit in my sitch, since inattention was part of what got us here. Those things will be part of my experimentation. Awareness is key. I was a little disappointed at the end that I didn't have much more clarity on what to do in the future (like 25yrs said). We didn't get directly to my questions. I didn't feel direction and confidence at the end. But in the last half-hour there has been a dawning peace. I don't need specifics. I have been given a framework for how to move forward. It is a gift, and I am grateful and will use it wisely and the best that I can.
