Not sure where to start

[wishing, hoping]

Journaling:

His family is pulling H away and encouraging him to tear away from me. They tell him he has changed because of me. They tell him we are materialistic because we built the house of our dreams together. They say horrible, evil, ugly things because they are all jealous. Because we were in love. Because H became successful!! Because we were happy. Now they are all trying to peck away at it like vultures!!! How can you overcome the dysfunction?? H is getting sucked right into it and I was always the one trying to pull him out. I guess I am just going to have to get him get sucked back in and let him realize what is happening. I hope he does before it is too late.

H needs someone to help him see past the quagmire. But I think right now he is rebelling towards me like a teenager rebels against his mother. I guess like a teenager I have to let him make his mistakes and hope he doesn't hurt himself in the process.

This is so hard. The hardest thing I have ever done.