Thank you for your posts. I appreciate them greatly. By the way, if I do have sex with him, we use condoms. I've considered cutting off sex altogether, though.
Since my post, I have confronted my husband with what I discovered and he told me a number of things:
"I didn't think I'd get caught." "When I get the urge to have sex, I do stupid stuff." "I think I need therapy." "I didn't DO anything." "No one answered the message." "The message didn't go through, anyway." "In the message, I said I MIGHT be interested in a FWB relationship."
...like any of that made me feel better. I'm still hurt and he thinks an apology should stop my hurting, but he's apologized to me about using porn before and he did it again. I think an apology means you'll change your behavior. He seems to think an apology means "I'm sorry I got caught" and doesn't change his behavior.
*sigh*
I don't know what I got myself into. He deliberately withheld telling me he used porn before we got married because he knew I'd decline his proposal. There are a number of other things that have surfaced since we got married and especially since our son was born. I'm just waiting...Not sure what I'm waiting for...I'm just waiting.
