Not sure where to start

[wishing, hoping]

Thanks nhmom. I keep reminding myself these are for me so that I can be a better person and have that show from within. I want to be the best mom I can be. I am always so jealous of people that seem to have that special glow from within. I long to have that glow.

Lately he has also made more attempts to not work so much and to get home at a reasonable time and spend time with the kids. I am glad to see that. The kids love having their dad around. It was getting to the point where he was getting home late every evening. He said at one point he didn't like coming home because he never knew what he was going to get from me once he got home. That really hit me. So in these 180s I have tried to make home more calm, more serene. No nagging, no barrage of questions and no anger, no frustration. I do like myself more this way and so do the kids. It still is not entirely inborn in me yet because I am still fighting my inner self and questioning my every move. But I am trying.