looking for hope

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So far I have been keeping up with my goals. I started making dinner again and I have been to the gym twice this week. I also keep applying for jobs.

After my gym class was over I decided to stay for the next one. I knew there was a chance my W might show up but I thought since she now lives on the other side of town it probably wouldn't happen. Plus, she had our son for the evening. She did show up and with her sister. After the venom she threw at me last time I saw her I was nervous but I tried to act "as if". She tried to be funny and said "we need to stop meeting this way." I said hello to both of them and we made small talk. She tried to tell me about her plans for after the divorce but I didn't engage. So it was a short sentence or two from her about moving into her parents house. Two things I noted were that she noticed I didn't have a mat and a weight for the class. She grabbed me both when she got hers. Also, they both set up right next to me even though there was plenty of space. I'm not putting too much meaning into it. I just found it curious since I supposedly ruined her life. I'm sure things are going to get a lot uglier when she sees the temporary orders my lawyer drew up. He is asking for custody, child support, spousal support, and residency.