Since my last entry, I celebrated my 48th birthday (WAW made no contact), moved out of our house, and have been preparing for my surgery tomorrow. It's been hectic and it's had it's up and downs, but in the end, I like my new place and looking forward to the future after I recover from my procedure.
It was sobering that my WAW made no contact on my birthday and I have my doubts whether she'll visit me at the hospital. Consistent with her past behavior (estranged from her parents for over a decade), she wanted nothing from our R when I moved last week let alone have any contact/engagement with me during the process. I'm not surprised and it's not unexpected, but nonetheless sad for me.
When I was packing up the house, I was surprised at the things she left behind (she said anything she left in the house could be thrown away or donated). Strangely, she left her diplomas from college and grad school. She left photos from before she met me and it seemed she was trying to avoid feeling any emotion about me or the R. She quickly packed what she wanted and got out. I saved some items (i.e., diploma) which she may want down the road, but I won't be dealing with that until a few weeks into my recovery.
As to the surgery, the D has helped me get into the proper mindset. There is natural anxiety and fear going into the procedure, but the journey I've been on the last year has really helped get me into a good mindset for tomorrow. I'm focused on getting well and looking forward to the future.
Better sign off...early AM tomorrow. Wanted to drop by and thank everyone for their support. Will update when I can on how it goes tomorrow!
_______________________ M: 47; W: 39 M: 4.5 yrs; T: 18 years No children Separated: 01/19/11 Wife Served Papers: 02/1/11 Wife moved: 03/05/11 Responded: 04/14/11
