Good stuff, alamo... including your response to your W's letter, IMHO...
It might be time to take a stronger stand on owning your responsibility in the M, as far as your W...
You have appologized many time now, for your offences. From how I've learned to know you, you are remorseful. That being said, your W has not been able to "let it go" in the sense that she is not forgiving you... that's how it appears, to me... so she still blames you and points your old deficiencies in your face...
It may be time for you to simply let her know that you while you validate how she felt, that you have apologised many times in the past and that you have let that part of you go and are moving forward and therefore would apreciate that she stop smearing it in your face...
Now, I'm not sure how to say it, but that's the idea... I think 25 has a good way of putting this type of response...
As for job becoming possible career... well, that would be great... although I would say that, like your M... that is something that MIGHT happen in the future, so keep doing what you are doing, but have no expectations that WILL happen... and also, don't close yourself off to the possibility that something else, just as good or better, might come along...
ie. Don't put all your eggs in one basket...
Keep the possibility of SC in your pocket and keep working on the idea of 50/50 and how that might work in various scenarios...
