MH,

I know it seems real difficult now. I think you should put all the DB stuff on hold for now. DB can be tough on a person emotionally. I think your sole focus should be getting better mentally and emotionally. The tunnel that seems so dark and encompassing now does have an end and there is light and goodness.
Please take care of yourself and know that I care and am pulling for you.


Patience is bitter, but its fruit is sweet.
--Jean Jacques Rousseau.