I have been working so much lately and its so easy to be carefree while at work. I feel like I perform better at work cause I dont let the little things at work bother me anymore. Sometimes I think being at work kind of stuffs my feelings and doesnt give me the time I need to feel sad. I guess I just need to find a balance between being distracted and grieving.

I wish my girls would just stop growing cause right now they are too darn cute. its insane. Clarence the cat is up to the usual, waking me up at 4am with his meows.

My MIL will be in town Thursday and Friday to watch the girls. I know she will speak to H as well. Dont think that will matter. He is an alien.

You never know when the miracle will happen. Its in Gods hands.

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M 39
H 35
D5,D4
M 4
T 9
ILYBNILWY 5/18/11
Left 7/11/11
Divorced 12/1/13