The anonymity is very nice but to find like-minded friends in what is a time when most of your family and friends are telling you get out, cut off your leg and get on with life, it would be nice to hear a voice when you are alone in the darkness of your bedroom. I go to bed at 8 pm when my D4 does, she can't sleep alone anymore. Against all of my practicalities I let her sleep in our bed now. I find myself waking at 4 am thinking, praying, with a headache sometimes, but always waking then. In the Chinese culture 4 is an unlucky number (I am not Chinese by the way.) A little superstitious now and then, yes. I won't go into all of the coincidences of the number 4.

Back to the point...happy to meet any DB friends for support. Not that we are experts but friendships are always nice. You know your true friends because they are there for you through the dark times.


M: 39, H: 38
D: 4
Together: 19 Y
Married: 9 Y
Bomb #1: 11/04/11 (5 days b/f anniversary)
Bomb #2 and H left: 01/03/12 (day b/f my bday)
OW: confirmed, they live together already