My Story So Far. Is this even worth saving?

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Sorry it's been so long since I've written here. Things were pretty intense at home for a while.

Honestly, I'm still wondering if I want to stay in this M. I mean, H is doing better, but at the same time, I think that everyone deserves to be happy. I'm not happy with the way the M is, he isn't either, but I don't think he's willing to put the work in to make this work.

I'm trying to GAL, but it's hard right now. I'm having a pot-luck party tomorrow night and have a work event Wednesday and H and I are going to a movie with some friends Thursday. All Friday, Saturday and most of Sunday are involved with a work forum that I have to attend. I guess this is kind of me doing my GAL work as I'm not sitting around the house, moping. I had a nice, lazy weekend reading, surfing the web and watching movies. I am fairly irritated with H right now. He's started taking a medication which has stopped his suicidal ideation, but has made him "testy", shall we say? Well, I don't deserve to bear the brunt of this. He can be a jerk with someone else. I'll just ignore it and focus on other things.

This kind of is a 180 for me. Usually, I'd get mad back and tell him to knock it off. Right now I'm just ignoring it and doing my own thing.