Informally separated from WAW, but DBing my best

[AlwaysTrying]

hope - I know you only want the hug from one person. I completely relate. If you can find a hug from someone else, it might still do you a lot of good.

The movie did not work. It reminded me of how much I love my wife and how strongly I feel about protecting my family. I still didn't want to go home. I stayed in the theater and watched the next movie that came on. I've never done that before. Again, I ended up thinking about W throughout the movie and especially afterward.

I nearly texted my wife. "I've spent hours trying to think of the right words. I can't do it." I've spent hours trying to put my mind around how to get her to come out and say, "Yes, our marriage is worth saving."

I know that I need to keep my needs to myself. I have to be silent until she needs me. She has our kids, our house, and always my full support. I worry with such an easy deal, she'll take so long to get there.

I know I have to get to sleep (fail today, again), take care of myself, take care of my finances, and take care of my job. Those things combined with maintaining my devoted support for her and our family will speak to her even when she won't listen to my words.