I did go to my friends toga party last night. It was nice, just chatting , eating and drinking. No one getting blazingly drunk. Met some nice people. Practiced talking less and listening more.
When I got to my car, there was a sweet anonomyous text message waiting for me. The subject was: SICK OF HEARING ABOUT IT
The message was trunticated. But what I got was: Relationships are a sacred bond, a circle of trust, if both are not 100% on board it is not w
I'm guessing the last word is working. Why is OW sending me a text like that? Does she think the circle of trust she formed with my H while they both lied to me is some how a new better circle?
Why does she think that by sending me things anonomyously I won't figure out who is doing it. And back to why is she sending me stuff.
Oh, never mind, Chaos and Triangulation. I left so I wouldn't talk to him more yesterday. So he probably fussed at her, when he finally talked to her. Leaving her no one to fuss to but me.
I am trying the best I can to take care of myself. I was really down yesterday. And my doc had asked me did I think I was the only one in the world who ever felt like this. I told him no, that was what was making it worse for me. Knowing how many of us are suffering, knowing there are a lot of us feeling just like this.
And that is funny about the age thing. MY great-grandma made it to 101. She was active up 'til she was 99. My other's all have been mid 80's. My H's family not so much. I know my H thinks he only has a few years left to live.
And that being said, I do think he should go and try to make himself happy. I just don't think he needs to try and leave me ruined and broke.
I am headed out to a Sashiko class for the quilt guild. I don't know if fun will be the right word. I will learn something, though!
Aloha,
Wendy
And I got home around 9:45.
Me 57 XH 58 Sons age 32 & 27 M:32 D final 9/12 Bought 10 Acres and Living the Dream!
