I know I should have just left it when he said "I'll let you know," but it was hard for me to control my emotions there. I, think, that if he doesn't go to dinner with me this week and texts me with a no, then I'm not even going to respond to him at all. He's giving me ALL the signs that he doesn't want to be with me....why am I sticking around!??!?!
Ah girl... it's ok. Nothing to get upset about. Honestly, I was soooo much worse. Crying and asking every question I could think of.
This is why it's soooo much better to just stop the interactions for now. You are too emotional over everything that's going on that you're like a ticking time bomb that's waiting to go off any moment he says something you don't want to hear. It can be very deadly for your R.
It seems hard to be away from him NOW, but eventually it won't. And then you can be around him without feeling like you have all these questions that need to be answered RIGHT NOW!! You can just enjoy seeing him and know that you're ok. YOU ARE OK!!
It will take time for you, girl. I know it will. And I know it doesn't seem possible but when you get there you will have an inner peace that life is going to be fine.
For now, resist that temptation. I cannot even tell you how many times I would write a text to my H and just stare at it for 10 min deciding whether or not to send it. (In the beginning I didn't care... I sent him whatever I was thinking... it was bad!)
But my thoughts kept going to, is this going to push him away? And every time the answer was yes. So I quit that behavior. It took some time and now I don't even have the desire to go there. It would just erase all the hard work I've already put into this. Am I making sense?
Me: 32 H: 32 M 9 yrs #1 D7 #2 S5 #3 D2 Bomb 8/12/11 H moved out 8/14/11 PA started w/H & OW in 1/12 - found out 3/24/12 Got my own place 8/25/12 H & OW move in together 9/15/12 Still married.
