Just checking in..

Last night S17 had an event at school and we both went. It was great to be supportive of S and he was looking for us in the crowds. He did great.

When we were leaving S15 asked if we could get pizza so I said "sure we will order one" and H suggested stopping on the way. S15 was excited so I agreed. S15 was animated and happy, telling stories, etc.

When we left H said to me privately "that was nice" and I said "I couldn't disappoint S and this doesn't change anything" He got hurt and a disagreement began, with him telling me where I was wrong, its not just him, etc.

When we woke up he said "As far as I am concerned, it was a good night and I enjoyed it. Lets end it at that and forget the disagreement. I don't want to complicate things"

I replied "well we certainly can't simplify them"

He was telling me about his IC appt and some of the things he brought in, which surprised me a bit. He also said "I don't know where your head is but when you are ready I am ready for MC" He said "I will keep saying it until you tell me you are ready"

Today he went away with his buddy and they will be back sometime tomorrow. I have been enjoying the day and evening with the kids. I only heard from him twice and he has stopped texting/calling.

He said "I heard you when you said you need space and I think I need some peace as well"

It doesn't seem like he will be moving out based on some of the things he has been saying. His IC is weekly and I will continue my journey as well. I have support group tomorrow and IC next week.

Whoever said this is a marathon sure wasn't joking.


-Autumn