Just separated from my husband and need support

[Milady]

So, it is taking like four days for my posts to show up which seems to be burying this thread so who knows if anyone will even read this, but I have no one else to talk to. I was feeling so good this last week about everything. I have not been initiating contact and he has texted me practically every day this week. Usually something about our dog or cat but will follow up with other things. I am always the one who ends the conversation. On Tuesday we exchanged some flirty texts and ended up talking on the phone. He said he wished I was there, he made a comment that I construed as him admitting he still isn't sure about ending things.

Then today he started asking about bills and what I can afford to pay and making me feel like I'm a terrible person because I've been out of work for awhile (this has been a point of contention, he was never supportive, just bitter that because I didn't have a job, he couldn't spend money on whatever he wanted, which is what he was used to). I already feel like a terrible person because I don't have a job, I don't need him to rub it in. And I feel like he is just focusing on why I'm not good for him again, because I'm just another responsibility.

All in all, it's been a wretched day. I thought I would hear back from the interview I had and I never did. I miss him so much and I had myself all psyched up thinking he was missing me too. I really want to go get some of my stuff next weekend and see him but I was hoping I could get him to invite me instead of inviting myself. I've been doing really well with staying positive and today I just can't. Plus my friends and family are making me feel worse. Please someone tell me it will get better.