Brooklyn Babe

[BklynMom]

Hi All, I have been working like crazy recently and taking care of the rwo little ones. Its nuts and a mess around here. Been loving work. All the self help I have done over the past several months has made me so much better and more relaxed at work. I take things much less personally and just do the best I can.

Monday through Friday generally I feel pretty good. Actually I guy a work told me the other day that my eyes were beautiful. I think he was trying to get something out of me but still it felt good.

I also have been able to open up more in the work enviornment telling old friends that H and I are having serious issues or even saying that we are separated. I still have a hard time saying we have split cause I really want to just say H left me. One thing I am noticing is that everyone just assumes he left me anyway for another woman no matter how I phrase it.

Spent this morning having several interactions with H. Its mostly aweful. My kids hate going from house to house and their are always questions and crying. I had to excuse myself at one point and cry for a minute in the bathroom. Seeing how he is hurting my kids its hard to DB and act loving. I am as gracious as I can be and dont yell or say things like "Wow, OW must be really good in bed for you to be okay with making your kids cry like this" But this is horrible. Painful is an understatement.

The kids crying doesnt seem to phase him. Looking forward to having the day and half to myself. This place needs a major clean up and I plan to work out, watch a movie, catch up on the boards and sleep.