Divorce....with a side of crazy...

[imthemom]

yes..my L thought it was pretty funny, as did I...but today im not laughing so much. I hate that its come down to what it is now. Because of the completely outragaouse demands he had put in his purposal I was forced to respond with some that were just as outragouse to counter his...I feel like crap, thats not the way i normally handle my buisness in my life. Ive always tried to be reasonable and rational..in all my years of dealing with my son and his disabilities Ive had many IEPs with the school system and have a reputation of being that..so much that they will recomend me speaking to parents to help when there is a problem with other IEPs. I work for the school system and have a lot of contact with parents and special needs students.
I feel like this has just got into a huge mud slinging fight and it really doesnt even need to be that way..we dont have a lot left to split between us ...its just the support that he refuses to pay even though he sees us struggling and going without and he is living worry free running around spending money on ow while his sons quality of life is no where near what it was for the last 15 years. I dont understand how I tolerated 15 years of his alcoholism, taking care of everything from the kids to the house completley alone, before i gave him an ultamatem and moved out...then his affair and now Im this evil b$&*# that he hates so much....
How did I get here? I feel like im looking around and saying "what the H just happened????
I dont want it to be this way...I understand he wants to be divorced and I cant change that but all the uglyness feels so ...well, ugly. I thought we had more respect for each other then this....