We had a nice day together today. He brought up wanting to play video games at a buddy's house soon. Not sure when he'll be doing that, but I'm sure it'll be sometime this weekend. I don't have a problem with it at all.

I hate that his going out is such a sensitive topic for me, I really do. He just spent so many years lying and going out behind my back. Going out excessively and stumbling in the door drunk at 3am, convincing me that I was dreaming all of it up frown It was awful. Now he says that he made some horrible mistakes and he'll never do that to me again.

I keep meaning to share this. Check this out. Hopefully it works! It would be neat to interact with you all this way as well as through here.

As much as I love my 3 evenings per week that I'm off school, I hate them at the same time. I'm so used to always being on the go, that when I do have time to just be at home while J is at work or out, I get to thinking, and I analyze the heck out of everything, no matter how much I try not to. I hope more than anything that we will learn to trust each other. I know that I'm taking tentative steps toward trusting him. I know it may not seem like it, but I am. I'm accepting that he wants to be happy with me, and he is trying to do what he can to make it happen on his end. I'm doing what I can. We've slipped a hell of a lot, but I do believe that we're making progress smile

M & H 25
T 9
D 7
S 4
Bomb 11/11 Confused about feelings for me.
Bomb 12/11 ILYBNILWY, moved out
2-1-12 We're exclusive & dating each other.
3-4-12 H moved back in.
3-31-12 I deserve better. I'm done