Well, spent a great day with H. The weather was great, we took a trip into town to get car title, registration mess taken care of. Had easy conversation, just like always. Then sat right next to each other for most of the afternoon working on my computer. Had some snacks, opened a bottle of white zin. That's what just kills me. I looked good, was cheerful, it was all so normal and familiar. It makes me miss him so much. This is when my looong term thinking has to kick in. We will stay in contact, he will see good changes in me and maybe???
Right after bomb, I got the book ILUBINILWU, it was before I knew about db. I gave him the book to read with all sorts of notes in the margin plus a letter detailing all of the things I did wrong. Well today as he was leaving, he said he had started to read it. Wow, i'ts not going to stop D. and me moving, I get that, but I'm glad he's somewhat willing to take a look. My 35 year old d. and her bf were having troubles. I rec. that book to her and she said it is really helping. Anyway, going to have another glass of white zin and try not to obsess about anything. Plus he's coming back tommorrow to do yard work. We will see how that goes. We hugged goodbye and I held on and said human contact and he hugged me again. Not reading into any of that but it felt good.
