Thank you, kimmerz. I really appreciate all of your insight since you're farther along in the process. I am definitely hiring my own attorney. I met with a women yesterday who I really liked. She advised me to sit back and let him file and then we'll respond. I'm in the process of looking for a full time job and that will be huge in how this plays out in terms of the house. The longer this takes the better for me. In the meantime, I've told H that I expect him to pay my legal fees as I will not go into this unrepresented. He wanted this so he can pay.
At the beginning of this week I was still hoping to reconcile, but after all of this I don't know what I want. I just need the weekend to refocus on me and the boys. I will just never understand how someone can treat their long time spouse this way. I just keep telling myself that just because he left doesn't mean I was worth leaving. At first, I felt so bad and believed that everything he told me about myself was the reason for our ruin marriage. It took awhile, but I truly know that this all about him. I was a faithful, loyal and supportive wife for almost 19 years. He was lucky to have me.
