Everwhere is walking distance if you have the time

[ClingingToHope]

Met D13 after school and went to eat -- $37, ouch. She brought up XW and her "friend." Yes, she's met him and he's exactly the opposite of me. Doesn't talk. Older. Fatter. Just kind of a lump.

D9 has met him too, and D13 thinks she knows what's going on.

She asked again if I had anyone. I said no, that lady in December and January was nice, but there was going to be too many complications and I didn't feel enough for her to fight through them.

I told her that second marriages fail at a greater rate than first marriages and I'm not going to just latch on to someone.

Finally, we got off the subject.

Apparently, the BF was at my old house last week about 10 minutes before I got there. I'd let D9 take a friend to the river, instead they went to the other house. After 20 minutes I went to check on them. They weren't at the river so I figured they'd gone to the house. They were there and I made them come back.

I guess BF showed up to take the dog out.

I told D13 that the rule this summer is going to be they can't go over there unless they here from XW that she's there or that no one is there. I never, ever want to show up at my old house -- the one my parents owned -- and see this guy.

I really, really hope the house sells this summer.

Brought up anxious feelings again. I have to keep on the path. I'm getting some side work in now -- making money -- then heading to Friday night service to get refocused. I'm meeting a friend out later -- about 10 p.m. Golf tomorrow. Visit a friend and then out later.

Have to work in at least two workouts as well. Plus, I know this already is a lot, I want to tackle a long time hobby.