I received a text from H today outlining what he's willing to agree to so we can save time and money. It's so much more complicated then he thinks. He also referred to my attorney as "our" attorney. Yesterday I asked him to leave me alone and I meant it and now this. I'm starting to feel bullied. I'm not the one who left and wants a divorce. He left me with two angry kids to raise, a house to sell and I've had to quickly get a job after 15 years as a SAHM. He just has no idea how he's hurt us and the incredible burden he's placed on me. I'm tired of being hurt and angry and have really done my best lately to move forward and focus on me and boys. Today I just feel defeated. I called H re his text and said that he needs to hire his own attorney. I'm not the one who wants the divorce so I'm not filing and, in general, I just have too much to take care of right now. I also let him know that we are coming at this differently. I need to protect my financial future and that of the boys and he's looking for a quick fix. I was calm and told him that I won't stand in his way, but I'm just done with all of this back and forth. I probably came across as negative, but I just couldn't muster up any illusions of being chipper and content with my life. So H was frustrated when we hung up, but what does he expect? While he's able to compartmentalized his feelings, I'm not. I'm living and breathing this horrific situation that he pushed me into.
