Hi. I've been married for about a year and a half. We have a son that is 15 weeks old. This is my first baby and I'm told hormones are still unstable in my system. Even though I don't want to, I still have sex with my husband at least once weekly. I'm in graduate school and am in my internship. I also wake up with our son every night. My husband stays home with our son the three days I'm at my internship (about 20 hours weekly). He doesn't cook or clean, just watches movies on TV.
This week, I discovered my husband sent an email message to someone telling them he might be interested in a FWB (frieinds with benefits) relationship, he's been looking on pornographic sites, and visiting websites geared toward cheating on your spouse.
I have been trying hard to keep our marriage afloat, but he still behaves as though he's single. When I was pregnant, I had gestational diabetes and he opted to buy bowling balls when I needed food. He has also left me seated on the toilet, crying and pregnant to go bowling. These are jukst two examples of many. I don't feel loved or appreciated and don't know what to do. I suggested we get marital counseling months ago, but he has rejected the idea.
What is there left for me to hold on to? What am I supposed to do?
