Informally separated from WAW, but DBing my best

[AlwaysTrying]

The single biggest problem in my life is the breakdown of my marriage and the damage that is causing to my family and household. I want desperately to fix this, but it's not completely within my control.

The second biggest problem in my life is that I don't get enough sleep. This has been the case since I was an adolescent. I can't get enough of being awake. There is more to do. I don't want to sleep until my body is well past the point of functioning well. I get less done because I'm not at my best, then I loose sleep trying to catch up and the cycle continues.

I've said I'm going to stop this cycle a number of times before but it never sticks. I wonder how much like someone tying to quit smoking or drinking this is. The temptation back to the bad habit is always there. I'll do it just one time... but I slide into day after day sleep deprivation again.

So many bad things follow from my not getting enough sleep, that it is probably the most important supportive action I can take to help my marriage right now, so I have to find a way to get it done.

Do I make myself a calendar? 30 days of being well-rested? I know I need to Just Do It, but so does a smoker hoping to change their habit.

This time I'll really do it? Well, I'll do it tonight, probably. I just need a way to push myself into sticking with it.