Keeping the Kids Out of It

[PrincessP]

Evas,

Wow, are out stories are strikingly similar with a few variances. I technically do not know about the OW. I only know through our D3, having met her on three occasions/dates. I am making educated guesses with receipts for dinners, etc. and of course, the nagging question of where is he living without spending money on rent…with someone. I suspect he is the next county over in Northern NJ. (Hey, you and I might be in the same area in addition to the same situation.) I have been DBing for a few short weeks too. I understand it feels like an eternity already. I look at our D3 (tomorrow is her bday, turning 4) and I feel sick to my stomach for her; I wish there is something I could do to make her not suffer. I want to scream from the top of my lungs at my H to come home and be the man, husband and father he can be. Like you, everything is my fault and I am the “bad guy.” So far my 180s have been to look my best, be disarmingly nice to my H, and be the best mom. They sound like tall orders and they are but each one has a stash of mini 180s in them. For example, the looking good, I have started curling my hair; wearing eye make-up; pulling out my old clothes to wear (which fit from losing weight…couldn’t eat for weeks after H left); and wearing my favorite lingerie (for myself.) What are you doing?

PrincessP