I'm new to the forum, so new that my initial post hasn't been cleared from moderation yet. At least I don't think it has. But I've been reading here for several weeks (in some ways it already feels like months which it has not been).
BF, I've followed your thread for the past week and I think you have been incredibly strong in light of what you've faced. I cannot say I understand because I am going through a very different situation.
Regardless, I empathize and am taking strength from how you are dealing with your adversity. I think, rightly or wrongly, that you have your focus in the right place and that is on YOU. We cannot make someone else see/feel what we do.
Not sure what more to say, other than I expect that there are others like me who read your thread and take strength, far more than actually post in it. You have had many of the regulars respond, but those of us on the outside see you as well.
Keep your chin up.
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