Together Since We Were 15...Now Piecing

[Jenna333]

Thanks for the rec. I'm getting so sick of this. He slept on the couch last night. I was still seething when I got home from school. I just feel like he doesn't care about my feelings as much as he should.

You'll definitely want to smack me for this. He climbed into bed with me this morning and cuddled me, repeatedly telling me that he loves me and missed me. I pretended to be asleep and didn't say a word. I told him not to sleep on the couch last night, but he did anyway. We were fighting, though, and I was bitter.

I just feel lost! Like I don't want to try very hard anymore because I'm fed up. It goes back to when, towards the end of our separation, I started to see the silver lining to not being with him. Sometimes the idea of not dealing with this anymore is so nice. We just have to get back to a good place, or we're dooming ourselves. There is just near constant conflict that we're both responsible for and it's wearing us down. We both feel like we're walking on eggshells, and when one of us slips, the floodgates are opened.