looking for hope

[jc180]

So today my W moved her direct deposit somewhere else. When I asked her what she is going to do about a bounced check and the bills she said it was on me because I put my foot down about not leaving the house and I should use the money I took out of the savings. She then moved all of our sons money into the checking which is no where near the amount I need to pay the bills and buy groceries. I told her that she knows the money I have is to support my access to our son when I'm homeless and if I don't have a job. Plus, that is what I'm using for the attorney.

I also repeated that the reason I have not left is because I am trying to provide stability for our son and a two parent household, but she left.

It seems like when she text and is on the phone she is meaner than when she is in person. The past two days she has been polite. She even spent 30 mins at home trying to get our son to bed. She told me she is dreading this weekend which I have him all to myself. She said she doesn't know how she is going to cope and that she was surprised I didn't call her when she had him. I said I was respecting her space. She also said she didn't want to let me have him for 30 days during the summer. I didn't say anything to that. In my mind that is something for the judge to decide. So that made me feel better. Knowing that she was thinking about why I didn't call. Plus, she offered me one of her cookies.

I am getting closer to getting a job. I had a really long interview that went well. However, the hours are not great and the pay is low. I also joined a union and I hope to be getting called soon for work this weekend.

I will never look at a roller coaster the same way again. And the ride has just begun.