Great advice all, way to keep my focus. I really appreciate it, and I am back now It was a momentary lapse
He has texted and emailed a bunch today, and I only responded to the tax questions.
The kids are out doing their thing and I have my support group tonight so I won't be home until after 10pm.
I ordered a new book today, it was written by a man in my local area who has been right here. In his 19th year of marriage his wife dropped the ILYBNIWY and he wrote the book about the raw ups and downs,etc. He spoke to a group I belong to on Monday, and sadly I missed it. The book will be here tomorrow, and it comes highly recommended.
For now I feel strong again, glad to be back on this side again. Hoping to stay strong for a while, a little longer each time.
It was a momentary lapse 