All I can tell you from my experience, is do not let this stand in the way of what you have been doing.
It is a very difficult time as I have been there. You want to get bitter and you want to get angry because you don't understand why. HB explained to me that when they are going through MLC, they have to change something in order to finish going through this. They will either quit their job, divorce their wife or do something else drastic.
This does not mean that it is the end of things. It just means that you are going to be starting a new journey and learning more things. Yes, it is very difficult and it hurts, but this I can tell you that the harder you fight him against everything the harder the changes are going to be and the harder it will be to work things out with him.
He may have been trying to get his feelings back or trying to figure things out for himself during the time that he has been trying to reconnect with you, but something inside of him wasn't changing. He still has all those feelings inside and it has nothing to do with you.
Although people maybe telling him that it does. They maybe telling him all kinds of things that you are not hearing yourself. I know that people do that because all they are trying to do is get the MLCer to feel better. So they are telling him that he needs to do this or that in order to get through this and to get past everything.
It can also be the guilt that he is feeling on the inside for what he has done to you. There are so many reasons and you don't know them because he hasn't really discussed them with you at this time.
You can drag your feet if you think that it will be the best thing for you to do in order to give him more time. All I can really tell you, is to really seek the Lord on the course of action that you should take. Be very careful about getting bitter and thinking that it is over because those thoughts will race through your head. They did mine many times over, but he Lord kept telling me to stop looking at the circumstances and keep looking to him for the answer.
He still cares about you, that is evident, but there is so much more that is going on inside of him that you don't know about. I will definitely keep you in my prayers because I know what a difficult time this is for you and how hard this path is when you are placed on it.
